7-8-9.....
these days...
i never had so much of guilty feeling....
i cried cried n cried......
i didn't understand wht to do....had no one wid me...
kept on n on n on.....screwing up things......
this week had been a quite hectic and stressful for me...
starting wid synapse.....the days jus ran through in front of my eyes....n also me running around....
n then the damned Infocity's VP Singh.....i gonna remember this guy throughout my life....after seeing this guy i understood the agony my dad had wid these kinda 'matthars'...
i gonna fry this asshole after we get our share of money.....
one day while conversing wid this guy, i jus felt like smashing his face off the table..
i gonna write our complete experiences wid this guy later....(a complete big novel can be keyed down...)
now and then many few thoughts go around...everytime i feel like putting them here...i jus don feel like doing so.....
the drafts in my blog account have been increasing...but i jus don feel like publishing them....
yesterday...i wrote a loooong thingie.....n accidentally closed down da the window......sooobsss....
aneways....
everytime i sit down to write something....the only thing that comes to my mind, is , wht should i write???
my free time's mostly always filled some stupid idiotic n foolish thoughts....
it's mostly, where i gonna end up, what am i gonna do in my life......n lot other stuff....
n the secondly, it's about, who's gonna end up wid me....it's damn sure that who so eve she's gonna suffer....n tht's petty sure...
no gal can't tolerate a guy like me.....they simply run away seeing me...
n the other one being.....who's gonna employ me????? he's too gonna go fuse off.....
n i gotta many more things to bother!!!! more than, i can even think of.....
i can't even understand a simple thing in my life - friendship!!
i jus love them....more than anething else in my life....!!!!
It has already been 2 months (well, i happened to key this post long back, but published it now!!!!), since my birthday....
n its now, i realized tht my teenage's over.......
i entered into the 20th year of my life......yipeee!!!!
there are a lot of things lo ponder abt, bfor i say tht....
It has been 19yrs frm the day, i stepped onto this grt civilization. Wht have i achived till now...???
Tht's a question, tht bothers me a lot.
When i try to find a few answers, these are the ones----
- Made a few gud and close frndz, 2 to be precise...
- learnt a lot abt life n the ppl....frm the last 5-6 yrs....
- still in the process of differentiating bet. GOOD and BAD.
- The most important thing of all - "EVERYTHING IN LIFE HAPPENS FOR A REASON"
- The the other most imp. thing - always listen to what ur heart says, no matter wht it is and wht the world says abt it. N wht the brain says..it's bullshit....
- the brains influenced a lot by the dirty things in and around.
well....
i jus completed my 3rd semester, finally after giving da the re-exam for DIM...
tht was something tht had virtually ruined my new year, though i had a good start into this year.....
there were many tht had ruined my last semester....they have been a big chapter of my life......
NOW....
this semester...i have a lot of aims and aspirations...
the first one being get into a good company for da industrial internship...the only thing tht bothers me my CPI, n this is da 1st time my CPI has bothered, though it's the only thing tht bothers my parents...
And also i have thought of learning some new softwares.....tht would be something too far for me....
n this semester would be too hectic fr me.....
i have Synapse under my nose to work wid......n a few courses, which wud be taught by a few damned f***ing Prof.s. I don't wanna screw up one more semester, n get a reason to be trashed....
When i look back, i can't even belive tht it has been nearly 3 semesters and it seems to me tht, i was here in engg. jus a month back.....n my seniors are graduating out in nearly a semester....
n coming to my frnds......
i have met quite a few people(bcoz many refers to da fucking frm AP, including me and excluding a few)....whom i would like to appreciate.......i have made quite good frnds, n some best frnds.....
N well...i donno wht bull shit i have writing down now....
jus got of my bed...n sat down to key this in......
