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it's already been a week since the winter vaction began , and here I sit and blog, apart from the fact that, i have been doing nothing all this week. All that changed are my workplace, just made myself a cosy place to work and a dirty bed, and the all the stuff lying around in ma room..!!





well, that's what i was all toking abt..!!

the work place is a combination of my lappy with an extended desktop onto the TFT of ma roomie....and the other PC, thanks to narendra, i use that to run all my php applications , as a storage device, to burn dvd's and as a bluetooth interface to my phone.

the bed is whole lot of crappy shit from all over the place.....!!!

and me, i am still running around with my stupid useless brains that only drools..!!!

apart from all my useless work all the useful thing i did was to write myself a 10 page report for my course Three Thinkers and here's all of it...!!

I once had a friend who grew to be very close to me. Once when we were sitting at the bank of river, she filled the palm of her hand with little water and held it before me and said this to me:

"You see this water carefully contained in my hand? It symbolizes love. As long as you keep your hand open and allow it to remain there, it will always be there. However, if you try to posses it, it will spill through the first crack it finds. This is the greatest mistake that people do when they meet their first love....... they try to posses it, they demand, they expect.....and just like water spilling out of your hand, love will retrieve from you."

"For love is meant to be free, you cannot change its nature"

The book Love in the Time of Cholera, the author Gabriel Garcia Marquez narrates a amalgam of two contrasting elements – love and cholera. It is a tale of time, love, secrecy, age, memories, death, passion and patience.

Florentino Ariza is a sentimental romantic figure of the 19th century, the time around which the story is set. He being romantic is reflected in the fact that he cannot even write a business letter without certain amount of lyricism in it. He is placed in a position, where he gets rejected by the Fermina Daza, whose father disapproves of their love and she gets forced to embark upon a ‘marriage of convenience’ to Dr. Juvenal Urbino, whose character is the counterpoint to the romanticism of Florentino Ariza.

Love in the Time of Cholera is an “anatomy” of love. Growth of love out of a profane environment of “convenience” that bonds both the Doctor and Fermina Daza described in the book. All the meaningless details of everyday life shared by two people bound together - all the unpleasant smells, degrading tasks, and dulling routines; all the unspoken bitterness and rancour; all the sullenness and gloom engendered by unlived possibilities, are unmercifully catalogued. Love’s power to grow in such dark interstices– and to remain unscathed–is one of the most skilfully rendered theme of this work.

Throughout the book, the author makes several remarks such as :

Sick women live forever

When you are ugly and poor you can only want more

Unfaithful, but not disloyal

Humanity, like the armies in the field, advances at the speed of the slowest.

In the poem Tonight I Can Write… by Pablo Neruda, the poet express his overwhelming sorrow over a lost lover that has prevented him from writing about their relationship and its demise. The poet's constant comparison of past and present show his inability to come to terms with his present isolated state. The sense of distance is again addressed in the second and third lines as he notes the stars shivering "in the distance."

The poet links certain images of nature to his memories and also his past, like he talks about the endless skies and the shivering blue starts in the distance. The poet contemplates the world around him and the nature and all those things around him that remind him of his past love and cause pain to him. The poem charts a love story from the initial infatuation to the release of passion, and finally to a separation.

A Cautionary Tale is a case study of a woman from Why Do I Love These People by Po Bronson. Anne Jacobsen, who before having an affair goes to her husband and asked his permission. It story is all about Anne and her husband Jerome, who try to save their marriage, out which several questions arise – Is monotony to be jus endured? Is romantic love a wild animal?

The fragrance of a bud blooming to a flower ,the pious candle burning to light up a dark corner ,the breeze that blows to rejuvenate a life ,Love.

Love - that’s the essence of life adorns and embellishes it with a meaning, a purpose, a cause, a solution and makes it all together worth living. Love grows, perpetuates, it makes, it gives yet at times it breaks, but then too its love it’s what we desire and what we dream for. The passion of love has enchanted and its enigmatic mystifying beauty has been in glory ever since when the life history begun. It had survived times of had, war misery, catastrophes and disasters, it triumphed over all the averse. Romeo and Juliet and The Gift of Maggi happen to be the ideal examples of infatuation of young minds even today being the classics of love in its most sacrificial and pure form.

Love, when spoken about to a teenager would sound more of a infatuation and attraction, when spoken to a long married couple, it would be about sacrifice, helping and caring for the family, when spoken to a fan it would be the love for the persona, when spoken to a mother, the love is the smile that comes on seeing her the gestures of her child.

Like a morning sun that shines and sparkles, like the oasis of a desert. A mother protects nourishes her child the care and love she showers on him is the blessing of God the child receives in form of a mother.

We waste so much of our time in trying to be correct and perfect and in trying to win the attention and approval of others. The most unfortunate part of it is that those who try to be perfect or virtuous or humanely morale, forget to cultivate the wonderful capacity of unconditional love, which is inherent in us and which if allowed to express itself would enable us to love every one and let go of everything in the most selfless way.

If there is one virtue which we all are supposed to cultivate and manifest in our lives , it is the wonderful virtue of loving every one and every thing that is infused with the wondrous light of God. What is the use of being a vegetarian, or being virtuous, or of being morally correct, if our hearts are incapable of loving the creation of God? What is the use of passing so many judgments against humanity when we are incapable in our hearts of loving humanity unconditionally?

Love sometimes; rather most of the times is just fictitious. Most of the people have feelings for their opposite sex, which they too even are uncertain about.

A smiling woman dressed in pink and gold offers you a sample of cream to try. The jar is gold. The label reads The Love Magnet Cream. You take the cream and inside is a glowing pink love cream. As you open it, you feel a pleasant tingling sensation all over you. You apply the cream all over your body. It transforms your body making it radiate transparent pink, silver gold and all colours. It makes you feel younger, happier, and livelier and makes you more inclined to love, and then you decide to stand up and take the walk.

This is an example of the fictitious love, the woman made you go colours, walks to a middle of the desert and leaves you there. That is how all the relationships born out of fictitious love end up mostly. While at the same time love can be the reason to make a man live from his death bed, it is when it is pure serene and unconditional.

WE all remember the great story by O Henry in which two fatuous lovers in their emotional for each other deprive themselves of their most revered treasures and though ending up empty hands are the richest people who earned the love of their life.

Almost all of us realize the how lonely we are and crave for true love in our lives.
And how lucky and fortunate is it that we can love some one with whole our heart. In present times most of us would regard the Magi as dense and impractical but being guided by mind one can agree to this notion while when we follow the most pure conscience and heart that resides inside us. Yes, I mean everyone of us one can feel how much can be gained even after losing most valuable possessions for some one whose presence can make our heart going ,us blush out with most precious memories of togetherness that bind n yarn the relation of sacrifices of ones desires.

The Gift of Maggi - faded glory

How often do we hear a tale so pure,
blended with true love n passion to adore?
Let me recite you a tale of love n sacrifice,
perpetual n holy it was divinity in disguise.

They say the magi are the wisest,
they gave meanings to traditions,
they were the ones who r reckoned to begin Christmas presents,
n here is the legend of two foolish inamoratas.
Who in their fatuousness deprived self of possessions they were proud since their past (the treasures of the Dillingham's : hair of Della and gold watch of James)

........cascading river of gold rippled her hair like
surpassed her knee when she dried them to James’s delight.
The queen would herself renounce her crown
and depreciate her belongings to her hair when from window long n glittering they fell,
and he took pride when he glinted at that golden stream.

They he believed were the subject of envy of royal regime.
.........and one more grace did adorn their fame,
it was an article could have made King Solomon to make a claim,
James's gold watch with its glittering blaze.
He wore it with most pride.

And this year when the Christmas was approaching,
the "Dillingham’s" were worried with pockets not answering.
Della counted each penny yet again
but never it grew more she did that in vain
a mere dollar and some cents
not sufficient for a decent present
and when she gazed at the grey backyard in its grey melancholy
she sighed n suddenly read a sign sparkling brilliantly
it read it sold hair goods.

She jumped n ran as horses galloped through woods
time passed by on rosy wings.
there she stood her hair cut as a bird without wings
then she flew through every store,
ransacking for the present of her most adored
she finally found one a platinum gold chain,
its chaste design its value did proclaim.

And here came James home at last
On the door he stood immovable and frail
as a setter at the scent of a quail
he stood dumbfounded as if survived of an earthquake
then out of his trance he seemed to wake,
he drew a package out of his coat
for there lay a set of Combs.
for the queen of his heart that was his present
and soon Della knew the gold watch was also absent

There they stood crying out in love
but the sacrifices they made,
an Elysium did they deserve

The mellifluous sounds of love
will embellish for years the chronicle of these fatuous lovers above.

** Dillingham’s refers to the husband and wife they were James Dillingham Young and Della Dillingham Young

In the book Love in the Time of Cholera, Florentino gets attracted towards Fermina, the first time he sees her, when he goes over to their house to deliver a telegram to her father. He later realizes he’s in love with her and starts his life as a secret hunter, following Fermina wherever she goes and waiting for her on a bench in the park through which she passes through, on way to the school. He slowly starts writing her letters, which were exchanged from secret locations, know only to them. He always sat in the park, reading books on poetry and prose waiting for her. Meanwhile he read so many books and they both exchanged so many letters that, even after he was given the job of a clerk in his uncle’s river boating company, he continues to write the business letters in the lyrics of a love letter.

Florentino was completely involved with Fermina, though she never completely expressed her love for him. Out of their adolescence, they plan to get married secretly and then later tell their parents. But, Fermina’s father accidentally comes across the letters they both had written to each other, stored in Fermina’s trunk. And then he takes her away to their native place, in order to change her and then persuades her into getting married. Fermina slowly starts realising and gives into marrying a Doctor- Dr. Juvenal Urbino.

They begin their life as the wife and the husband, while Florentino waits for Fermina to return, he keeps track of her, while she was away by his network of telegraphic operators in the region. He keeps writing letters for her, which he never hands over to her, but to keep his love preoccupied with something. His mother tries to persuade him to see new girls, but he could never sustain a relationship with any of them, most of which always ended as one night stands. His life goes on, he slowly moves up the positions in his uncle’s river boat company and becomes the President, after his uncle retires. He gets involved with many women but never stays on with a single woman for long to sustain a relationship. Most of the women he loved were widows.

After the accidental death of Dr. Urbino he starts seeing Fermina, and their love is reborn, they meet every week to play poker along with Fermina’s son and a few others. As Fermina longs to go out, Florentino plans a trip on a luxurious boat, on which only Fermina and Florentino would travel. Along the way they see a lot of death and dead forests and many unpleasant scenes. Their loves grows more even at their old age, and love each other’s company. And when it was the time to return, Florentino, in order to avoid any cargo or other passengers, asks the Captain of the boat to raise a yellow which indicated that the boat was contaminated with Cholera. He buys himself a lot of time for them to be together alone.

Unfaithful, but not disloyal

Florentino lived in the illusion of love, he was obsessed with it. He loved Fermina so much that he could not forget her, even after he had affairs with lot of women. He was a womaniser, but the fact he loved Fermina never changed.

We are programmed to into believing that we are insecure in this world without our partner and that’s inherent in most of the living creatures on this earth. Most of them look for a partner in hope that the partner would supplement and support them in physical, mental, emotional, material and spiritual needs.

The more mature we are, by the time we decide to enter into a relationship, the more likely we are to find the harmony and the stability we desire. In general, we are attracted to persons who share the same kind of interests, values, motives and goals, and above all think at the same frequency we do. The values and the goals one holds in their adolescent age are not the same as their ultimate goals and values, and in the process, one changes through the years that go by. Entering into a relationship at early ages can create problems as the partner cannot cope with the changes in us and it’s most likely the relation ends in a disaster.

We exhaust our partners with our need of continuous reaffirmation of their love. We doubt ourselves, out love towards other sex. We easily fear losing others respect, love and admiration. This leads us to certain apprehensions which develop into possessiveness, jealously and aggressiveness.

Apart from the above all Fermina still loved her family and her children, she never ignored any of her duties as a wife and as a mother. She served Dr. Urbino as a faithful wife, even after Dr. Urbino cheats on her. The same is the case with Anne, in the case study A Cautionary Tale, where she longs to have a sexual relationship out of her marriage, but is still dedicated to her husband and her children.

Here the character of Dr. Urbino is analogous to Anne, they both have a sexual relationship outside their marriage, the only difference being, Anne strangely ask her husband’s permission to do so, while Dr. Urbino maintains it as a secret, until Fermina finds it out slowly by the change in his daily routine, behaviour and the odour of his clothes. Both of them have the sense of responsibility as a member of the family and so do not desert their partner and children. It’s the love for their family that binds them together. They just seek physical pleasure outside their marriage, because they are just bored of their monotonous lifestyle, which they wanted to change. But, they understood the monotonous lifestyle is something that is inherent in their life and they cannot change it.

When you are ugly and poor you can only want more

The speaker in the poem Tonight I Can Write… digs back his memories of his love and longs for the presence of his love and so is the speaker in the poem I like for you to Be Still. Both the poems talk about the person they are longing for and whom they want to be there. In the former poem the poet is sad at the absence of the person he loves and compares the absence with different elements of nature. In the later poem the speaker describes his feelings, for the person’s presence in his life.

Similarly Florentino longs for Fermina. Neither his illusion of love nor obsession for her doesn’t disappear even after she’s married and so does the fact that she is a wife of another man, makes no difference to him. He longs to see her at public gatherings and parties.

And so does Anne, who longs for sensual pleasure. She lived in an illusion that she was living a monotonous life and wanted a change.

Finally, Florentino gets to live with the woman he loved for his life, love for her for her was an illusion, and he was obsessed with love for her. He was able to express his love to her but, it took him fifty three years to able to reach her and express his love for her. Apart from the fact that Florentino was able to get his love, he had lost an important period of life, wasted with women and waiting for his illusion to turn into reality.

But, Anne whose feelings for a sensual pleasure were also illusory, she gave in to them, but later had to realise the truth and had to get back to her life and her responsibilities as a wife and mother.