Today morning i slept at around 5AM, after preparing(but actually it never happened-the preparation part) for the IEL test we had today........

Later, i was awaked at around 8, by people buzzing around and discussing, even the ones who were brushing were trying to explain somehting or the other to others, in the typical gestures and 'umm's.........

I was already late, so started hurring up and there started the song - "In the end" by Linking Park.......

It was the end, i tired so hard and got so far , but in the end it doesn't even matter how hard u try, i was gonna screw up the exam.....n the same thing happened.
I was listening to the lyrics, each of the which, exactly matched the situation.......


This is wht i say to the EXAMINATIONS, the world knows them by this name. Ya but has many aliases round the world.

But, fortunately, this word has no place in my dictionary, as a word the world recognizes it as....

This is the transformed me when the xams r round the corner.....

When i open up the Proffesor's folders and notes to look up for the syllabus, n phut!!!!

i know nothing, i don't even have the slighest hint what had happened in the lectures....

This is the part of my college life which i hate the most....at the end of which it is never a fun.
And with a few, rather many ppl. around who bury their faces in the piles of books, latched up in their rooms, its never fun.

Wherever u go, only one thing.....MOSFET's, BJT's, filters, groups, trees, convolution, fourier transform.................................................................................................................................................
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BULLSHIT!!!!!!!


n i don't even how 99.99999999999999999999% of these words are pronounced and spelled. forget their definitions and meanings....

I even don't know wht significance these words have in my life.......


This was the class photgraph taken when i was in 8th class at Jamnabhen Hirachand Ambani School in the Reliance township in Lodhivali.
It always keeps me reminding me of the good old days at the school, later after my 8th class i was sent to my granny's place to continue with my 'education'.

The resons for my deportation were:
1). I had to study for 4 consecutive years in AP prior to my +2 to get the nativity of that state.(Though i never got it) Actually, my grandfather also managed to get a false certificate showing that i had been with them for.....8 yrs(as far as i remember)

2). My parents thought that if i stay back in that school, i would screw up my academics. Thtz a long story........

I was lot different in those days. Daily i was thrown out of the my Science class, for simple reason that i didn't answer the dreaded questions asked the teacher. Even though, if i managed to answer, he found some another dammed reason to throw me out....

And when it came to Geography, it was taughtby a Bengali madam, who looked like a typical mountain goat from the Himalayas. She always had only one sentance to speak about me to my parents no matter how good or bad i scored in that subject - "baap ree ,Ravi Kiran, he is detoriating day by day" and gave a foolish frown at me, challenging me with her looks. And i gave her back a more serious frown, and challenging her. Back home i always had bad time after the parent teacher meeting- no TV, no games, no going out for another week.


N coming to Sanskrit, it was the dullest subject i had ever studied. I created waves in the school corridors, when i scored 2 marks out of 100 in the half yearly exams of 8th class. After that life was hell for me. But, managed to pass the finals with around 66 marks, i was the happiest man on earth tht day, when our final results were announced and also managed to get around 70% that year, though i never crossed 55%, the whole year.

i was about to write about a new "Theory", that i happend to formulate.....
actually, it would never look like a theory to u...itz a kinda a part of my thoughts.....


Coming to the point,

Nature always stikes balance among its constituents. Starting with the human population, here on earth. The number of females = number of males. This is what was the inspiration for the popular movie dialouge - "Tumhare liye duniya mein kahi na kahi koi paida hua hoga", (when suddenly the hero or the heroine pops out the screen from nowhere).

Similarly, there is notion of "karma", from which arises the concept of u get good, if u do good.
It goes this way, there is always something called the "FATE" or say it the destiny, its the most stable thing in this universe. Its aways the same thing, no matter wha tu do, or wht u try to do. It is the thing that dictates one wht to and what not to do.

Looks quite conflicting with the concept of "karma", which in the terms of our understanding says that, the actions tht would happen in the future, are as the result of wht u r doing or wht have u done till now. But, the point here stands the same, the things u have done, u r doing and tht u would be doing have already been stated down, itz the time that uncovers them......

Petty confusing......but its the way......



So, the point tht everything is balanced fits, into the space that, wht u do is balanced, by some or the other in the future. So this where the 'fate' and the 'balance' come together.....

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