well, this is something, that keep coming back to me again and again...
no matter how hard i try to forget it, it doesn't work!!!
have been having these 'nightmares' since a week or so.....
a lot of fear and guilt got built up into me....the fear of losing a good frnd...n tht too for no good reason....jus because of some stupididty of mine..
but, still something in me, keeps me reassured that everything would be fine and back to normal!!
but i donno when wud tht come....
Today, me sitting in my DBMS lab, and keying down this stuff.
A day more to go for the damned xams to commence and the damned examination committee decided to give our batch a 2 day break between the examination.
DAMN IT!!! ek baar saab exams rakho n khataam karo!!!!
jus happened to get the answer sheets of the mid sems we wrote long long ago....
the days are coming back the normal one's i had...except the fact that i gotta write 4 damned xams this week...
n the thing tht keeps me worried is the syllabus, it's too huge fr me to cover it up in a day or two...
still i sit here and m writing this thingie, with still a lot more things to study n cover up, but something tells me that, it's fine ravi, u can learn everything, n can score good!!!!!
HELL HOW????
HATE me for what i am,
LOVE me for what i am NOT.
this stuck to me today, when i was bathing....
Life these days is getting complicated for me...n having been making it the same for others...
i had screwed up things petty bad.....real bad.....
everyday morning i get up with a hope tht, i would make things better today, but, i never got tht chance. every moment i seriously hope tht something gud would happen now...but nothing really happens... m seriously nt happy with everything....everything....everything thts happening to me...why me????
oh, ya...life tells me to learn....but i have learnt my lesson...why do i need to suffer more...is the exam still pending.???
m jus over with myself....i have already petty screwed up my acads.....n donno how m i going to end up this semester.....
the real bad thing tht can happen is.....when one screws up things with the person with whom u share everything n love the most....
u are left with no one....
n when every time u see the moon for it's grace n it's magic.....
u stand alone in the middle of no where...
donno wht happened n wht's gonna happen...
Is it wht one deserves....
one screws up things, intentionally or accidentally...
but, atleast let him know, wht he can do to make things btter....
If frnds don hurt u, then who can HURT u......
it's all the part of being frnds, one learns to be better.....
A perfect frnd isn't the thing one should look fr....
No one's perfect, and searching for the 'no one' always ends up no where....
but the process or the making of a perfect frnd,wid the mistakes, arguments, fights, talks, walks n hurting each other....is the 'perfect' thing....
n the 'best' moments of life ---
Lying in the bed listening 2 the rain outside, thinking abt the person u love,
Taking a long drive on a calm road,
A sweet emotional conversation,
Finding money in ur old jeans jst when u needed,
Giggling naughtily.. holding hands with ur frnd 4 a walk,
Getting a hug frm some1 u care the most,
The moments ur eyes r filled with tears after a big laugh....
are too a part of it.....
Ravi, your true color is Yellow!
You're yellow, the color of joy and energy — two things you definitely bring to everyone around you. It's hard for anyone to be sad or lonely in your presence; your sunny disposition and cheery outlook just won't allow it. The warmth of your personality shines through in the kindness you show friends and family (and strangers, too). Always ready with a lighthearted joke or heartfelt compliment, you know how to make people feel good about themselves, so they can't get enough of you. Yellow is a warm and inviting color for a warm and inviting person — you!
7-8-9.....
these days...
i never had so much of guilty feeling....
i cried cried n cried......
i didn't understand wht to do....had no one wid me...
kept on n on n on.....screwing up things......
this week had been a quite hectic and stressful for me...
starting wid synapse.....the days jus ran through in front of my eyes....n also me running around....
n then the damned Infocity's VP Singh.....i gonna remember this guy throughout my life....after seeing this guy i understood the agony my dad had wid these kinda 'matthars'...
i gonna fry this asshole after we get our share of money.....
one day while conversing wid this guy, i jus felt like smashing his face off the table..
i gonna write our complete experiences wid this guy later....(a complete big novel can be keyed down...)
now and then many few thoughts go around...everytime i feel like putting them here...i jus don feel like doing so.....
the drafts in my blog account have been increasing...but i jus don feel like publishing them....
